Life Seems Meaningless
Date - Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Timing - 1:39 PM
My life seems pretty meaningless now... rmb me writing tat thr was a uni talk last week... i c many frends getting upset coz they cant enter ntu or nus... but me and my grp of frends were joking abt just entering sim instead and didnt even take the brochure from both ntu and nus.. seems so sad huh.. instead of aiming for university that have better recognition, we aim for a university tat u could enter as long as u got the money... My sis was asking me every now and then, what i`m gonna do when i come out of army.. am i gonna study or i`m going to work.. if i`m gonna work, what job will i be doing.. my mum was also nagging me to go study uni after army saying that u cant get a decent paying job with just ur diploma beside ur grades aint tat spectacular.. true enuff, i dun rmb myself putting in effort to even go study when i`m in poly.. right now i dun even noe if i can graduate next year becoze of my fyp..
I`ve experienced drastic changes in my lifestyle for this past year.. i dun rmb myself worrying abt not having allowance to spend.. call me a spoilt brat or wad but money has nv been a problem to me for like 17 + years.. i dun rmb myself holding on to a decent part time job for long.. bt now i got to work even during sch days.. and i tink i`m gonna join my frends in the waiter job alr... its gonna be a super tough period for me till i graduate.. My family been in a mess too n tat sucks.. it used to be filled with laughter bt right now all i can feel is ...... NOTHING i walk everywhere i c black faces in the house.. everytime we tok now , the topic is always money, money and stil money and it always ends with us quarrelling.. my sis was saying tat i anyhow spend my pay but i oni spend like less den 50 dollars frm my pay( 50 out of 500 considered anyhow spend??) and the rest was used for top up of concession and my daily spendings for meals in sch all those... i hardly get allowance frm my dad nowadays alr tat explains y the money in my account is depleting so fast and now my mum no money oso take frm me.. like my money wont finish like tat... damn i tink i grumble enuff alr so janna..